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It has been a while.

A lot of things have happened. We grew up. We have to. Because life goes on. And we carry together our mistakes as life-learned lessons.

Something happened recently change my perspective on a lot of things. You never know what people can say about you, and how they could have said it. With small amount knowledge, together with vast speed of information age, mixed with negative emotion building up inside, it cause not only a stir in a group of a functional working team; but the whole department, creating a civil war as described by a friend. One could not know what kind of a person you are dealing with;  even though they pray five times a day. So I guess everything comes back to your background. Family. You talked like your mother. You argue like your father. Choose those you called friend wisely. I have been back stabbed so many times, its time for me to step back. The door has closed.

Anyway, all of us 8 grew up, in time. The major event of the family is welcoming our stepmom, we called her Ummi. We had a reception on 20th February 2016, but the actual ceremony was on the earlier Eid Adh. Ashbi went to study in Osnabruek, German. Syiby graduated from UNiSZA and now works an IT officer of USIM. Alya has worked with Malaysian Airlines, but resigned when she got a better offer as Res. Officer in UTM. She moved to JB last month.

On my side, I had Abid on 13 June 2013 (in picture) and then Adil on 23 April 2015, both in Hospital Putrajaya. Now that we are SEVEN (including Eddy and me), there are no time to loose. They need my attention. My care. Alimah is in 1 Bakawali, Aidah 3 Ixora and most importantly Arifah is graduating her primary school from 6 Dahlia. Tonight is the farewell dinner, in Bangi-Putrajaya Hotel. For the record, she bought her own dress in a garage sale, borrowed a shawl from Alya and fixed her RM20- BATA-broken-heel shoes on her own. I gave her a blue handbag originally belongs to Niza for her to use tonight. I am so proud of her. I can depend on her doing certain household chores now, she can do things need to be done for herself and for her siblings. She can take care of the baby all on her own. I am so proud of what she has become, no matter what she got for her UPSR and PSRA. I am to register her to SMK Jalan 3 tomorrow. I wish you are here, Mok.

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This weekend would be the first birthday party for Zidni and Intan’s first baby, Adnin Zhafira. More events are coming. Future awaits you, keep calm and breath.

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Alimah started coughing since we got back from Tiara Beach Resort, the 3D2N vacation at the end of November. Then she got runny nose, non stop. She was taken care of our kind neighbour Pn Shima next door while I am away at work. 10 days later she had high temperature, and when we had her checked in AzZahrah, the GP advised us to admit her to the hospital immediately. We went to Putrajaya the day of her first birthday around noon. Her chest was X-rayed, and she was diagnosed with pneumonia. I was busy at work handling Program Motivasi for the students, yet I had to let it go and left it to Latipah alone. I was off from work up until Tuesday, when we finally manage to convince the doctors that she is fine. 5 days at the hospitals seemed too long. During our stay, Ayoh,  my siblings; Mynie et al, Zidni & Intan (so lucky for us that you work there), Muzani & Niza, Alya, CB, Ashbi and Adik. Also visiting is Pn Shima and her family, and also Pn Nor et al, our close neighbour as well. June also came the last day, bringing lots of gifts for the children. Thank you all.

ps Syiby (moderator MacMini) or anybody, could you please email me the picture Zidni took when we were together in the hospital? Whenever you are ‘operating’ the Mac.

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Taski Aisyah

Arifah has finished her pre-school programme, in Taski Saidatina Aisyah, ABIM.

The grand celebration is organised in a big hall in MPOB, Bangi. She took part in a play as a white bird, and it took me quite some while to find a full white attire. Luckily we found one which she agreed fit the criteria, and bought it in a shop at Nilai 1.

 The title of the play is ‘Balasan Gajah yang Jahat”. She enjoyed the play.

Arifah also took part in the nasyid singing, entitled Mari Bersolat and Salam Perpisahan.

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Takdir Penentu Segala

This is the last picture I have of mok in my camera. Alimah is wearing Afifah’s tudung, and mok is wearing mine. Mok, I miss you so much.

All of us miss you so much….

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Pertembungan Budaya

Salam.

Mynie has written something about dos and donts in the first few days when a friend or relative lost a loved one.

http://everydayicecubes.blogspot.com/2010/07/dos-donts.html

I want to add/ask something for discussions.

1. Why women in Terengganu (or is it in Manir only) cannot pray for jenazah?

2. What is the ‘hukum’ of women being in the ‘tanah perkuburan’? Can we drink there?

3. Is it common to give out ‘ang pow’ to people who come to perform ‘solat jenazah’?

I noticed that during the tahlil (held for 3 nights in a row), there are certain people whom we dont know, came and did not open their mouth, not even when alFatihah was recited. So, I told Arifah who was being very supportive to distribute each of them a Yassin. I felt that if they dont know how to read and recite, at least they will read the translation in Malay Rumi. And these are the kind of people, my grandmother was worried about not coming: ‘rama dok orang mari malan ning?’. After these experiences, I told my siblings, lets do our tahlil at home every time we can get together ie after solat jemaah Isya’. This is to answer a lot of question from people…. ” ada buat tahlil tak kat Bangi?” “nanti buat tahlil panggil ya?” and so on.

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55 tahun 2 bulan

Assalamualaikum.

Al-Fatehah buat ibuku tersayang, Puan A’esah binti Abdul Rahman (1955-2010).

For English version, I am sure Ayoh’s website would be describing more details but mine should be brief.  Satu peristiwa yang akan mengubah seluruh hidup kami sekeluarga. Mok (panggilan kami kepada ibu) dilahirkan pada 24 April 1955, dan menghembuskan nafasnya (dengan bantuan alat pernafasan) pada 20 Jun 2010 di Hospital Serdang kerana massive interkranial bleeding atau istilah lainnya heamorrage strok.

Pada lebih kurang pukul 5 petang Jumaat 18 Jun, setelah menidurkan anak saya (yang kedua, Aidah, diasuh oleh mok sepemergian saya ke pejabat), mok mengingatkan ayoh untuk solat Asar. Semasa ayoh solat, mok sediakan teh tarik kegemaran ayoh, dan sambil minum di bilik, mok sempat mengurut dan menggosok bahu dan kaki ayoh. Selepas itu menurut kata ayoh, ayoh nampok mok basuh pinggan di dapur. Bila ayoh beralih ke meja study, ayoh terdengar suara baby menangis, mungkin anak saya, tapi tak melarat, jadi ayoh jenguk ke dapur dan lihat mok sudah terbaring di lantai dapur. Ayoh pangku mok, katanya mok sedang cuba bernafas (very heavy breathing), dan terus tak sedarkan diri. Ayoh segera telefon kami yang masih dalam perjalanan pulang. Muzani (#4) yang paling awal sampai dan mok dimasukkan ke Wad Kecemasan di Hospital Serdang setengah jam kemudian.

Di sana, saya dipertemukan dengan doktor bertugas, kebetulannya kawan sekelas masa di Matrikulasi UKM, Dr Farah Alwi. Dia tunjukkan CT scan kepala mok, dan terangkan perkara ini adalah sangat catastrophic. Doktor pakar neurosurgeon di Hopital Kuala Lumpur dan Hospital Sg Buluh akan dirujuk samaada pembedahan boleh dilakukan untuk mengeluarkan darah beku di pangkal otak mok. Malam itu, mok berehat di Wad 7B ditemani oleh Alya (#5).

Esoknya, darah mok sangat rendah, doktor berusaha menaikkannya dengan bantuan ubat dopamine dan pasangannya. Namun, doktor tidak memberikan harapan yang cerah kepada kami. Dr Lai menerangkan kepada ayoh, pendarahan dalam kepala mok sangat besar dan serius. Tuk Seni dari Terengganu dah sampai, begitu juga 6 orang adik-adik mok. Kawan-kawan mok pun ramai yang menziarah di hospital pada hari Sabtu. Malam itu, saya dan Cik de Zu berjaga di sisi mok. Kami berjaga kerana ubat yang dimasuk dalam darah mok tu cepat habis dan doktor perlu putuskan untuk tambahkan dosnya. Menjelang pagi, dos yang diberi sudah hampir tahap maksimum.

Saya tidak pulang ke rumah berjumpa anak-anak, mujurkan dua orang adik ipar kebetulan tinggal bersama dan merekalah yang menjaga Arifah, Aidah dan Alimah sepanjang saya berada di hospital. Pengasuh Alimah, Kak Shima pun turut membantu. Pada hari Ahad, keadaan mok semakin tenat. Doktor berbisik pada saya supaya selalu ucapkan syahadah di telinga mok. Kami telah mula membaca surah Yassin dan sebagainya sejak semalam. Hari ini juga ramai kawan-kawan mak dan saudara mara terdekat datang melawat. Yang merisaukan kami ialah tekanan darah ayoh naik tinggi. Saya tak mahu pulang ke rumah, dos ubat dah maksimum, 20 mg dan jantung mok terpaksa bergerak laju mengepam darah. Lama kelamaan tekanan darah menjadi sangat rendah dan begitu juga dengupan jantung. Kami dah maklumkan nurse awal lagi, dan bila bacaan tekanan darah dan jantung menjadi ?, kami diarahkan keluar dari bilik untuk doktor merawat mok. Masa kematian dicatatkan pada 10.15 malam.

Zidni (#3) dan suami saya, Eddy ditugaskan menemani mok dalam van jenazah, saya dan anak-anak menaiki kereta yang lain. Kereta yang dipandu Hanief dan Malini (#2) pula rosak di Temerloh, mereka tinggalkan saja  di sana.  Mok dimandikan di bilik tok dan arwah tokki dan disembahyangkan selepas Zohor. Mok disemadikan di sisi ayahnya, Tokki Abdul Rahman di Kg Paya Datu, Manir. Kami adakan majlis tahlil 3 malam berturut-turut di rumah Tok Seni dan pulang ke Bangi pada Khamis yang berikutnya. Life goes on. Semoga Allah mengampunkan segala dosa mok, kasihanilah dia seperti mana dia mengasihani ku semasa diriku masih kecil, sejukkanlah kuburnya. Ya Allah Kau Maha Kuasa. Amin.

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Salam.

I just looked up Zidni’s blog. A good presentation of our family day trip in Awana Kijal last month. I just want to paste the link here, for my record, or for anybody else who wants to see me/us there, because Zidni pasted a lot of picture!! Enjoy.

Family Get Away in Kijal I

Family Get Away in Kijal II

Family Get Away in Kijal III

Kijal Get Away Closing Ceremony

Kijal Rusila Manir

Visiting Relatives in Terengganu

That’s all for now, I hope Zidni don’t mind. Bye, see you soon…

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